Well, as I've put in on here from square one, it's my life, & I'll do what I please!!! BUT, ( as many of you know ) tommorro a.m. my life is in the palms of County Court Judge, Jermone Richards. Jerry knows I have chemical imbalance, but he also knows, that many people with same ( bi-polar, aka: manic depression ) make some of the best CEO's a company could ever ask for... So I'm not asking for sympathy, nor do I expect any, from this Judge. And old schoolmate of mine...... IRONIC AT BEST......

First off, I just want to thank, this global communtiy of friends that have stood by me steadfast ALL THE WAY!!! We all ( for the most part ) realize that there's more than one war going on, especially here in the states. The drug war we are losing very badly... I got caught up in that war, and now I'm a target.... One of the undesirables.... ( 3 Physicians just got busted here locally and they all got sweet plea bargains.... Busted for over prescribing OxyCotten, Morphine, ect.... 2 out of 3 Drs. will never practice again. The other lost his NY state licence & is now probley headed to VT. or NV. to carry on his Dr. Pain philosophy)

I have a GREAT Physician, and have been under his care for 12 long yrs. I have ALWAYS refused the harder drugs, that have become so popular... ( I watched my friends, take Oxy's and Fentenal Patches.... Peneyroyal tea, just isn't my trip... ntm: the majority of those old friends are now serving prison sentences, for forging scripts, or robbing somoene)

For those of you that know me. That isn't my style... I swear on my Dead Mother's grave, that I have NEVER taken an Oxycotten Tablet.. NOT ONCE... & I am allergic to Morphine, in the traditional sence.... A Drs. needle wouldn't harm me... My health has been a slow poisen to me, so I guess I'm not in a hurry!

I live my everyday life. I survive on a maintainance dose, of 'mild' narcotic pain relievers, and 3 differant types of breathing meds.... ( COPD ... It's really nothing compared to Bi-polar illness ) ( don't feel sad I cope, well, I hope to think ) ntm: A certain medication, for my chemical imbalance, that also puts my seizures at bay..... Haven't had a grand mall, in almost 5 yrs.... Modern medicine, you gotta love it!!!

Enough about my health.... I'm a survivor... I can do it... I just really wanted to thank All of YOU for your words of kindness, your genreousity, and just for being who you are.... I actually don't know what I would do, if not for you... I can't mention names, for fear of leaving someone out!!! But thank-you.. & God-bless each and everyone of you.... That comes from the bottom of my heart....

My entire family, has given me support, from day one.... My six sisters, I love them... My three brothers, I love you alike.... Lyle I didn't mean to make you cry... Who would of knew??? You didn't cry at Ma's funeral, and you were her baby... But you cried tears when I got busted.... Love you man... that spoke volumes to me....

I've found that these message boards, are a community of friends, and lovers alike.... I wanna thank you all from where ever it is, that I left my soul at... Oh it's there. I've just been searching for it, on a daily bais for 169 days now....

I'm not walking into this alone... I not only put it in Gods hands, ( which I have... You think this sounds like rb having a nervous breakdown, it would be SO MUCH worse without my higher power to shoulder the burden).. but I will walk into that courtroom, with each and everyone of you, with me.... All those good vibes you sent me, all those well wishes... They follow me around, and I'll be taking them with me too....

So if you hear a loud thump tommorro, am... You'll know, that Rb got his plea arraingement, and I'm off house arrest.... Cause I'll be jumping loud enough to shake mountains..... As Cheryl suggested, just walk in there thinking positive. & that is what I'm gonna do.... ( I'm so used of expecting the worst, and hoping for the best) .... YOU ALL have instilled in me FAITH... Something I lacked before this lil blunder.... So I wiill walk in there, put my faith in God, that at this time next mnt. I'll be holding my Grandaughter Zoee....

God-bless you all/ Rb

* I'll keep you posted..... ( and many of you can say, JEESH, I'm glad that's over with... we're sick to death of hearing bout his problems.... ( Love is the Answer/ Todd Rundgren

RB You really are in my thoughts, I'm sending out every vibe I've got for tomorrow for you.
Really hopeing for the best,
Love and Hugs
Bev.

rb....of course you are not walking in there alone tomorrow.....and no matter how it goes, you won't be walking out alone, either.....

....you have alot of friends here....some closer than others....but alot walking with you....

...hope you have some sweet dreams and sweeter ones tomorrow night....

take care, kj

Hey Rob,you know I,m with ya bro,I,ll be sending good vibes to you tommorrow...keep the chin up man ...
You,re friends are always here/there for you !!!,After tommorrow it,s a new beginning...
By the way,who has the blunderite bail fund!?!?!!?!

We're wishing you all the best. Hope things go better for ya. I have depression due to my diabetes so I can sympathize with those who have it & bi-polar. Prayers & vibes...

Rob - I will be thinking of you and Wyld tomorrow. (Her dr's apt is tomorrow too I belive). Sending you all the strength vibes I can.

I dont think anyone is going to say they are sick of hearing anyone elses problems here...I think everyone would just like an easier life for eachother.

But - not one of us is alone.

Rob, count me in as one of your friends who'll be with you tomorrow...

Reg, what's going on with Wyld?

While we're at it, please read my post called My Sister which I'll type up shortly.

Yup! I'll be there too Rob, Blundervibes can even reach half way around the world, doncha know!!((((((Here's a hug to take with you)))))), Louise.

Rob... I'm there with you!!! I KNOW that whatever happens, you have us all backing you up... I love you, my brother!!!



Terrie... nothing much to worry about - it's just something I'm having checked out... I sent you a private message.

Hi rb, it's 9:00 over here should be 3:00 a.m. for you. So when you get up a nice cushíon of vibes should have arrived from Germany. All the best for you.
Love
Brigitte

Buena suerte, mi amigo. May the powers that be, both cosmic and terrestrial, smile and bestow good fortune upon you, tomorrow and further down this bumpy road we call life.

Peace,
Capt'n Zap

We're with you and you're in our hearts (always, but a little more today). And of course, we're sending those Blundervibes. Peace.

Well I just wish I had better news for all of you that support me. The D.A. and probation, had some discrepency's in my case. They were argueing back and forth, back and forth. My lawyer called a side-bar, and the argued with the Judge, what in the "hell" is going on here your honor???? The Judge had little patience today, and called for a 2 wk. postponement in the sentencing...

You can bet Rb is totally bummed.... My lawyer was so frustrated with it all, he just said he'd call me, when they all come to there sences.... This plea bargain aggrement has been in writing for almost 6 mnths...

So back to court I go, August 21'st... The wheels of justice turn so slowly, they might as well have put on the breaks....

Still under house arrest so I can't even walk it off....

I am taking a 2 wk hiatis, from boards.... I'll let you all know in 2 wks. what happens. Maybe between the 4 of them ( My attorny, the D.A. Probation & the Judge, they can figure it out) Talk about the 3 stooges. In my case I get 4.....

Sad, upset, and angry..... I have two more wks. to dwell....

Tx again for your support... I hope you hear from me in two wks.... My lawyer seemed quizzeled at best....

Hang in there RB, and do stick around,were all in your corner bro....

Rob... don't go away from us, just when our help might mean the most. Things happen for reasons that we may never know. Hang in for the next couple of weeks, and let our Blundervibes build up for you!

Love n Hugs!
Wyld